T-Minus One

Tomorrow is my last treatment. Honestly, I don’t want to go. It seems weird that you would think I would want to get it over with, but it just sucks to badly. I want to not go about 12times as bad as I did the last time and about 144x as bad I as I did for the first one. I just don’t want to go. But I know it’ll be quick, just not painless. Oh well I’ll survive.

In a few weeks I will hopefully be feeling pretty decent and maybe I’ll be able to get out and about to say hello to a few of you. Thank you everyone for believing in me and praying for me throughout. Let’s hope my last CAT/PET scan is perfect and we never have to worry or think about this every again.

Hardly rockin' in the New Year

I know…it’s been quite a while since I’ve posted. I’ve given plently of excuses to multiple people. But it really comes down to this, I can’t think about what I’m being put through. Any little hint of it will make me sick. Even writing this is upsetting. Yes I’m over the hump and I only have four more treatments. But the knowledge of that doesn’t make it any easier. I’d rather think or talk about something else, Christmas and New Years happening have been a great distraction from it all. I’m a bit nervous as I go on a bit of a leave and everyone returns to their normal lives and the world outside becomes more gray that it may become harder to start super positive.

I had a wonderful Christmas hanging out with friends and family. The food was great and hopefully helped me from losing any more weight. Sara gave me lots of fun presents. I built two puzzles and will be framing them to hang up in the basement. Mark, Glenn, and Uncle John came by for a few hours on Monday to work in the basement. And to round it all off I bought a new laptop because our old one died in my hands.

Needless to say it was fun chaos, but I’m pretty beat today. I think the whole ordeal has worn me out. I think that Sara and I will be rockin’ 2009 out with a whimper tonight. I need to recoup.

I can’t say that’ll I will post more often, but Sara has been good about keeping everyone up to date on Facebook. Thank you for all of your prayers and support, we’ll be needing them in the new year!

I Can't Sleep!

I feel bad that I haven’t been nice enough to update everyone on my status after that brief posting I gave two weeks ago. Since then I’ve made it through another treatment and even a small cold. The cold knocked me out this entire past weekend. I spent it on the couch. I had high hopes to work on the basement and you know, feel semi-normal, but my body didn’t get the memo. It made me a little nervous, because I can’t imagine how I would feel if I got really sick. I guess that’s why they tell Sara to rush me to the E.R. if I’m having a fever.

It’s annoying not knowing what the new day will bring. Everyday something rears its ugly head and makes me miserable in some fashion.  I’m not trying to be pessimistic either, I just have to admit how completely wacked out my body is right now. It’s scary feeling so out of touch and out of control of the form you are trying to live in.

Tomorrow I go in for a CT scan in Cranberry. This will be the first true test to measure if my enlarged lymph nodes in my neck, armpits, back, and pelvis are receding. During the Steelers victory win tonight I had to drink some of the contrast junk in about 16oz of juice before going to bed. It must be pretty nasty if it had to be masked by that much juice and the fact that the juice didn’t really taste like juice afterwards. What’s even more fun is that I get to do it again in the morning before we head out to the test. At least there is a Denny’s breakfast to look forward to with my honey!

I’m not sure if it’s that junk that I drank, but it’s 2:45am and I can’t sleep!! Hello people I have to go to work after that scan. I hate not being able to sleep. It’s been less lately especially with the cold, thankfully that’s dissipating.

I met with my ENT (ear-nose-throat) doctor last Friday to check out my incision and just see how treatments are going in general. He seemed pleased with how I looked and felt, but it’s very hit or miss with me right now, he must have caught me at a good hour. He did check for lumps in my neck/trap area and said that he couldn’t really feel anything out of the normal range. So that was a good thing to hear! Let’s hope the scan tomorrow confirms that! We’ll go over the results next week before my treatment with my oncologist.

Thanks again to everyone that leaves me comments, sends me cards and emails, and attempts to hug me at church! I sincerely appreciate it, I can’t say it enough. Time to attempt some shut-eye.

My Day with Lord Stanley

Lord-Stanleys-Cup-webThat title should read, “My 5 seconds with the Stanley Cup.” What really matters is that I got to touch it! That’s what she said. Our office got to host Lord Stanley for three hours yesterday afternoon because of our relationship with the Penguins. We didn’t get to meet any players, just Stan the Man, but it was still pretty cool. We got a few group shots from a photographer and then quickly got pushed out of the way for the next group. I can’t say it’s a memory that will last forever because, well it was so quick we barely realized it happened. However it was an awesome year to be a Pittsburgh sports fan and this was a good way to cap it off.

I quickly used some hand sanitizer.

The end.